|The Steampunk Tarot. Text by Barbara Moore,|
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Carla used the spread to look at her path to weight loss and achieving vibrant health. She chose a Significator and an Outcome card looking through the cards face up, and the three steps to achieve them randomly. However, part of my problem right now is that I’m not really sure what I want my goal to be. I would like to lose a little weight, about 3 kilos or half a stone or 6-7 pounds, depending on how you prefer to measure these things ;) On the other hand, I’m not desperately unhappy with my weight.
More importantly, I want to feel that I am eating healthily. Last year I managed, after nearly 40 years of chocaholism, to quit sweets, chocolates, cakes and biscuits for 11 months! However, since Christmas I’m off the bandwagon. I’ve managed a few days or weeks without, and I haven’t been overeating the way I sometimes have done in the past, but I’m not entirely happy with it. Although I didn’t lose much weight last year, my cholesterol levels did drop dramatically, and I felt I had more energy, as well as feeling I was doing my liver good. (Did you know, eating lots of chocolate can be as bad for your liver as being an alcoholic!)
I’m wondering, though, whether there is a way to achieve a happy medium. Can I eat sweets sometimes, without going into binges or eating it everyday? For example, last week I went five days without, but then had a pain au chocolat (we are on holiday in France, after all). Like AA, that means I have to start my count again from zero. However, there are studies that suggest that such all-or-nothing methods are highly demotivational - if you’ve “sinned” there’s a certain feeling of, “Well, I may as well make the most of it if I’m being bad” so you’re REALLY bad. Or “Back to zero, I’m such a loser!” - also not the best for on-going motivation.
So anyway, I’m not sure what I want my goal to be. Good health, I guess, but that seems a little nebulous - definitely not a SMART goal! Due to this uncertainty, I decided to let the cards tell me where I am now, and where I should aim towards at the moment, and the three steps that will help me on this path.
|Image from Anna K Tarot, as I am not allowed|
In Barbara Moore’s Steampunk Manual, she talks from the point of view of the woman holding a child’s hand as they both slog through snow. She hurts more for the suffering of the child than for her own. This is certainly an important part of where I am now. As I mentioned in a post a couple of weeks ago, when Big Boy is unwell, my eating gets worse, and given his medical issues he’s unwell quite a lot :(
Another thing I see here is the idea of feeling hard-done-by. There’s a bit of me that just wants to be “normal”, to be able to eat things that other people eat. After all, everyone eats chocolate, right?! Over Easter, Facebook was full of Happy Chocolate Day messages!
Where I should head - Two of Swords
The first thing that comes to mind here is the idea of getting some balance through having two different ideas to weigh up. Perhaps balancing between “all” and “nothing”. It’s a strange card to have as a goal, to be in a stalemate. However, I guess holding steady in the middle would be quite a good thing for me - not the extreme of chocolate with every meal, nor the extreme of veganism and three hours of exercise daily that was once my regime.
Another thing I see here, based on Barbara’s interpretation of the card, is that it might be good for me to have a couple of things that so occupy me that I expend all my energy on them, with none left over for thinking about what I am or am not eating. Not sure how practical that is, as I’ve generally found it is when I’m stressed that I’m most likely to eat unhealthily. So, they would have to be distractions that occupy me without stressing me...
Finally, I notice the full moon over her head. For this reading, what this says to me is that I also need to respect the pull of the moon and my cycles - when I last had a big biscuit day, it was my time of month. So, there are other biometric cycles, or the influence of sleeplessness, which will also affect my cravings. I need to honour that, and perhaps not beat myself up about it.
|Image from the Steele Wizard Tarot|
The Magician tells me I already have the resources I need to achieve this, I just need to find the will and direction in which to apply them. For example, just writing this post I realised that I need to set myself a SMART goal, rather than staying so nebulous. Barbara comments that the Magician makes things seem easy, because of the will invested in spending hours to practice and develop the appropriate skills. So, this also suggests I need to put some real dedication into this pursuit, be it of healthy eating or of finding distractions.
The Ace of Wands promises me the energy to find that will and direction, and tells me to seize it and use it when it comes. In the Steampunk version of this card, the base of the wand is an intricate knot work, which transforms via the clockwork of hard work and planning into an organic, living branch with fruit. This suggests that with this Ace, too, there is an element of planning and determination to create something which can then grow on by itself.
Finally, the Knight of Pentacles reminds me (as other readings have, too) that this is a lifetime’s process, a long, steady slog. All that Ace of Wands and Magician energy then has to be applied on a day-to-day basis. It might also suggest that I get the help and support of someone who is practical and grounded.
I notice the total absence of Cups from this reading (not that surprising in a five card draw, but still worth paying attention to). I think this says that emotion is not my friend here. Getting over-emotional encourages me to eat badly. So, I need to stay practical, and logical in order to properly apply my will in this matter.
I like this spread! Hope you'll let me know if you give it a go :)